The First Time

They say the bathtub is a great place to think, I can't remember who said it, But I believe Einstein did this and that's got to count for something, right? Maybe he said it? I don't know.

I haven't even started and I'm already off track. This is a bit ridiculous? Let me try this another way.

So it's been almost five months since I've started doing shows on the radio (KPDO 89.3 FM) and I still fondly remember my first time (feel free to chuckle at the innuendo, there's going to be quite a few I'm afraid)

I have also caught myself narrating and describing the things I see or remember. It started today with me watching the shower head spraying down water at the drain and imagining the individual drops of water floating up and swirling around in the sky like leaves on the wind.

anyhow, as I stepped into the shower and I reminisced about the first time, I began to mentally describe it all, the emotions I felt sitting behind the mic and hearing my voice replayed on air.

This story is the result of that.

Day One 

I was alone, the beast ready to chew me up and spit me out. I wasn't ready, not by a long shot. The beast could tell. It glared at me with it's 12 orange eyes of malice, it primed it's 3 arms, ready to take my every breath. Tens of Dozens of multicolored thorns threatened to prick tens of dozens of holes in my hands. I'd spent the last month training for this moment. This was it.

I closed the door of the chamber, If I was going to do this I would need to do it right. taking a deep breath I equipped myself with the necessary gear to challenge such a beast. Mustering all my strength I lowered the first switch, bringing up another at the same time.

It's first arm was level with my mouth, I recited the first phrase I was taught, This was it, I was actually doing it.

My words stumbled off my lips like boulders off a cliff side. My hands shook as my soul bared out before the beast, my hands twitched, fear yielding to mere anxiety. I plugged in, changing the switches once more.

The beast roared, but the voice was not it's own. No, the beast spoke with the voice of another. The voice I chose for it. I smiled with satisfaction, the beast was less frightening, now that I was winning.

I stepped back, momentarily disarming myself, A faint voice echoed throughout the chamber, my voice. My grin now spanned from one ear to another. It spoke with my voice. The beast spoke with my voice, all could hear it. The knots of my stomach unwound completely. Anxiety was replaced by confidence, donning my gear once more and prepared to return to the airwaves.

Time seemed non-existent, before I knew it my time in the arena was up. I bid the spectators farewell, and freed the beast, letting it hear it's own voice once more. I disarmed, The beast was mine. I knew then, I would return, wanting to improve. To see how I could better challenge the beast- no the machine. That's all it was now. Just a machine, and I had bested it. Not bad for the first day on the job.

END

So what did you think? This is the first draft I wrote just after stepping out of the shower but I want to have people tell me what they thought so I can make necessary changes and submit it to the school newsletter, The P-Town Post.

P.S. listen in to my show Furthest Edge on Monday from 5-6pm Pacific Time. This week I'm playing another episode of Cybrosis! Also tune in to my new show with Shannon Bowman-Sarkisian of http://coastsidewriterforhire.blogspot.com Abstract Discourse, we talk about all sorts of speculative fiction, last week we discussed William Gibson and Neuromancer. This week we talk about Writing, more specifically writing speculative fiction! Tune in Tuesdays from 4-5 pacific. you can also listen to Shannon's show South Coast Salon Sundays from 4-5 pacific. if you don't live in Pescadero listen live at http://kpdo.org/listenlive.php

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Planning Ahead

If I'm not mistaken, this is my third week of school. The days and weeks just run together already, not good....

So since you could say I'm finally "Settled" into my classes for the semester I should let you know what I'm taking if you have not been informed, and what I was originally supposed to take.
ORIGINAL SCHEDULE
1st Period: Environmental Field Studies
2nd Period: Algebra 2
3rd Period: Physical Eduction
4th: Period: Honor's English 10/11

NEW *IMPROVED* SCHEDULE

1st Period: Spanish 2
2nd Period: Algebra 2
3rd Period: Biology
4th: Period: Honor's English 10/11

Now I should explain the changes to my schedule and why they changed. starting with EFS to Spanish. You see in order to graduate I need 2-3 years of foreign language, now you see I already speak spanish but It's the only foreign language course they offer so I'm stuck needing it to graduate. EFS however is an elective course, thank god because it certainly did not interest me AT ALL. No offense Mr. Vail but I would rather take required courses before EFS.

Also changed was PE to Biology. Both are courses I had previously taken, I did less than satisfactory in Bio and considering I aim to graduate and 2-3 courses of Lab sciences are required I want to retake it. Another requirement is to take 2 years of PE, why? I have no fucking clue. I have other courses that should be taken and some electives I'd like to try on so PE is really such a space taker! Also I really don't like PE, if you hadn't noticed.

I am unfortunately faced with the dilemma of finding an out of school class to take that would count as PE next year since I can't take it next semester and I have some IMPORTANT classes next year that I really NEED to take.

Enough about that though and allow me to get to the fun stuff.

First of all, I made a couple of estimates and realized that in december of this year, I am not going to have any content for my show Furthest Edge. In January I'll be dishing out shiny brand new content that I'm currently outlining and getting ready to start working on. I've deduced that I have two options: One, take that month off and not do a single show. Two, do a series of 2 or 3 consecutive interviews.

Each brings it's own issues and benefits.
1) this means I get time off to focus on 2011 stuff, meaning recording and editing and adding music...etc. This also means people may get out of the habit of tuning in (NOTE: I'm not sure about that one actually)

2) I can possibly get P.C. haring on the show so he can talk about his Podnovel Cybrosis that I'm playing as well as get more people into the studio and get used to doing interviews. The downside? I don't get that break to prepare and produce my new episodes for January which are really important to me at the moment. Also, I have the stress of getting interviews set up on top of school,Christmas lists, and a new project I'll mention in a bit.

I'm going to be making a poll and posting it wherever I can so I can properly decide what to do.

I've also recently been asked to co-host a brand new radio show that we have yet to officially name that talks about geeky topics, it's quite a bit like the SafeHaven podcast I participate in however I am working on some things to differentiate the two besides keeping one on terrestrial radio and the other on the net.

Finally, it's September and for some reason I decided to start thinking about my 2010 Halloween costume or costumes if all works out. You see, I have garments from previous costumes that I am hoping to utilize in making my halloween costume and being able to change it slightly so I can wear the variant costumes to the radio station since we have a new webcam that watches the studio. That's right, big brother is watching the studio....

Anyway,  I currently have:

•  A midnight blue cloak
• A pentagram amulet
• A dragon head cane
• A plastic spartan sword (I think)
• A mask (in serious need of repairs...I'm working on it)
• Gloves
• A broken umbrella (not part of any previous costume but could be useful

So my goal is to make 5 costumes out of those materials, I'll keep you posted.

In closing, I'm going to be doing more radio station work in the coming months, school is going to be sucking up time and best of all I've found a time during school where I can write and update this blog (FTW!!!)

With that in mind I have a couple more things I have not mentioned so I'll save them for tomorrow and the rest of this week.

Good Bye for Now! --> Anglemeister

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School and Death

It's been a couple days since I came back from the camping trip I was on last Monday-Tuesday and I just have a few updates for this week.

First and least important (or most for some people) I start school next Tuesday. August 24 I return to the seemingly endless cycle of "learning" I'm honestly anxious about coming back. I don't remember where I left off as far as my grades are concerned. I still don't know how I did on my STAR Test (Standardized Testing And Results) which is something I should know by now. School always makes me stress, the only class I'm looking forward to is History, somehow it's the one class that I'm even slightly interested in. It also happens to be where I do my best writing!

Once Tuesday comes around everything will be topsy-turvey and annoyingly busy. I will be continuing my radio show on a weekly basis and every other week I'll still attempt to be a part of the SafeHaven Podcast however doing so will be much more difficult with homework and such. Sadly my reading will also slow down because of this but I will figure something out to still finish my list by the end of the year. Unfortunately school won't be the only thing hindering what I love doing, my obligations to raising money for my Youth & Government trips will suck up some time, and my lunch time where I can do more reading will also be hindered by my Youth Advisory Council (YAC) and Peer Mentor meetings. I generally feel that this year is gonna be a pain in my ass, especially because this is the year that College becomes a much more tangible concept, and I have to take the SATs and I am going to strive to get my driver's license. It's times like this I appreciate the good ol' days. I sorely miss being able to just goof off and not have any responsibilities. I miss not being relied upon for things, It's all too much too fast in my opinion. I don't like it. I don't want to grow up, but I know that I can't go back to being a kid.

None of us can. All we can do is to make the best of where we are and attempt or succeed in steering ourselves to our own destinations. We all are going to just have to suck it up and live.

Then of course Die.

I know it's a grim subject that few of us allow ourselves to think about but you can't think about the future without at some point dwelling on the fact that you are going to die.

I don't often dwell on the subject, it leaves me feeling empty and scared to think someday I'm going to keel over and just stop. I don't know if anything happens to my consciousness afterwards, that is of course what scares me the most. Not knowing, I don't want to just cease to be unfortunately that may be exactly what happens. Or perhaps I'll burn in hell for some sin or another. However if that's the case I'm not burning among strangers. Maybe I'll get into some kind of heaven or perhaps there is no heaven or hell just one place where all souls go after passing away. No one knows for sure, but death is very real. Just as real as growing up. Just like how I don't want to grow up, I don't want to die. I would crawl into a hole if I knew it would keep me alive forever.

Rather that's what I "wish" I would do. I know doing something like that is no better than dying so I may as well get out there and LIVE. Don't get me wrong I'm scared to death of Death, but I have come to realize I can't do anything about death. It sucks but that's life I guess.

anyway I hope you enjoyed my rant on growing up and my half-assed thoughts on Death. I'll probably elaborate on my past week in general from a blurb about my camping to the book that came in while I was gone that I am absolutely adoring!

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